By the title you can probably guess that 2014 was not the best of years, especially at the start. Rocky, tumultuous and toxic. Somehow I made lemonade out of lemons though, and fought with everything I have to create a more positive and healthy environment for me and my daughter. I’m now ending the year feeling stronger, healthier and so much more empowered. I’ve realized that I’ve allowed toxic and abusive relationships that I married into to plague me for over a decade – and I am beyond elated to kick those suckers to the curb without a shred of guilt or remorse. Those people have no place in my life nor in my daughter’s.
I suppose in some ways then, 2014 was a pretty good year. A year of insight and deep soul searching. A year of coming out of a fog that I didn’t even realize I was in. And it’s given me feelings about the future that I haven’t felt in nearly 2 decades. It confirmed to me that I and my daughter deserve respect and consideration and kindness, that I am not the monster the toxic people in my life made me out to be, and that my daughter does not have to be subjected to their toxicity simply because she is related to them. That I was simply their scapegoat so they don’t have to face their true selves. Those people will never be happy, or healthy, or whole and will continue to swim in their river of denial until their raft goes overboard. And I’m really good with that. Let-me-help-push-the-raft good.
So good bye 2014 and hello 2015. Nice to see you, where’ve you been? We’re going to experience some incredible things.
real-toro 